Comparison Never Fades

You know that desire when you want to impress the people around you? When you get nervous when you're around them 'cause you're trying to impress them? And that you get hysterical over every little mistake? It just felt so wrong. You're trying to impress someone that is not even impressed about you being nervous and hysterical. 'Cause it's the general rehearsal yesterday.. I messed up. Because I want to impress them. Then I realised, I want to be a singer 'cause I want to express my feelings when I'm on stage and I like the feeling that I'm on stage.

My plan just backfired. And that 'Trying to impress them' temptation is really not worth it. 'Cause we're all unique in our own ways. Even twins have different personalities and strengths. I always get envious of people that are great at my weaknesses. Only then, "Why should I get envious?" I said to myself. "It's their specialty. I know that I have my own forte. Every person is different from another person. Maybe that person found the thing that he excels at earlier than me."

I always get envious of other people back then. Comparison never fades. And you feel empty and left out. But why? Why feel empty and left out? Why listen to the people that compare you to another person? The question is, "Why impress other people when you're not even impressed of yourself?" It's just the beginning. Time. It's the solution. Time.