People Pleasing and Bullshit

I haven't posted in a real while because mostly my classmates found out about my blog last year and I felt embarrassed about writing again and then I got to realise this blog's value to me and I just couldn't bear not updating this realm of mine. I know, I'm so silly. But mostly I made this blog for reminiscing about the things that happened in my life. So many changes happened, obviously. I got on to a new school year and I just mostly tried to change my perspective about the society and my surroundings. I just happened to realise how complicated my life was and then I got to think that almost everyone's life is complicated. Nevertheless, I'm putting my best effort in minimising the complication going on. For about more than a year, I realised there are always times when things don't go as you planned. You feel sad and disappointed. I got to learn to be optimistic when things are going bad and try my very best to lighten the situation. Because no matter how kind you try to be to people, there's always something they're going to say about you. At the moment I'm trying my best to not get affected about it. I don't want to end up being a people pleaser whose happiness is based on what people think about them. Just being myself and as long as I'm not offending people, I'm fine. It's tricky being a teenager because you care so much about fitting in and being cool and hot. I hate this era of life. Don't get me wrong, I'm trying to change things around, and I'm still on the process. Not letting my insecurities to eat me is frankly a hard thing to do and I just want to be confident with myself.